Wow, 2010 was a really 'interesting' year. I know that most people who will read this don't personally know me, but I've noticed way too many young girls and guys going through the same things I did. I also know that this will be out there for everyone to see, but that's ok. I feel I need to write this for the world to see, just to let people know they aren't the only one going through it and that they aren't alone.

I am 42 years old right now. I've been abused most of my life, just about very type of abuse you can think of. For a long time I believed I 'deserved' it, that in some way I brought it upon myself. It's taken a long time for me to face up to what happened to me & get the help I need. I lost myself somewhere along the way, and I'm slowly finding my way back.

Please, know that you aren't alone. Know that what that 'voice' is saying isn't true. Know what they are doing to you or did to you isn't your fault. You are a wonderful, beautiful, strong, awesome and talented person and there are people who love you. If you need it, don't be afraid to get help. It will help, and no one will fault you for it. It takes a strong person to ask for help. And, I'm here if you want to talk. I'm by no means 'cured', but I am a work in progress - just like everyone else.

As for me now that I've started my journey ... I love myself, I'm pretty and I deserve to be loved. I am loving my life right now. I may be disabled and unable to work, but I'm getting by. It's hard not working, I had a job that I loved with bosses & co-workers that are more family than anything else - but working was making me sicker. I have my four kids & two grand-daughters, my close friends (who are my family) and a ton of new awesome people/friends on Facebook. I'm happy. I deserve to be happy, I deserve to find love again.

Be safe, be good and blessed be loves.

Please view my Facebook album to see something that really helped free me from my past.